Journey continues

The year was 1986. I had just turned eight about a month ago. My Year Three classroom was in the school hall. I think the school didn’t have enough classrooms. My closest friends were still Kenny Ho, Tan Tai Seng, Ng Seet Woo, Musfizan Mustapha and Liang Kian Hui. I recalled that Liang Kian Hui left us because his father was transferred to the capital city, Kuala Lumpur; if my memories served me right.

I was getting pretty chubby when I was in Year Three. My head looks bigger too. My nickname was “Big Head” ! Life was still simple and fun. I still remembered especially the music lessons we had. We learned to play the recorder; a blowing instrument. It was fun!

I think I am ready to reveal more about my father. He had a mistress in Johor Bahru ever since I was 6 years old. You see, I slept in my parents’ room until I was like 14 years old! Therefore, I heard a lot of things I shouldn’t have. I used to blame myself for all the quarrels and arguments my parents had. I blamed myself for disturbing their intimate moments. I blamed myself for getting sick and therefore mother had to put me to sleep thus preventing her from sleeping with my dad. Basically, I blamed myself for destroying their marriage. I put myself in the position of “intruder” or something like it. Every time I had a problem, there would be arguments.